frenzz is de best!?!?!

Wat can it possibly be? Always feel tat myself become odd d.. I felt so happy coz I could went to carmen`s b`day party.. especially can met him there.. soo kuan even likes to make a fool of him tim.. juz he became veli veli quiet tat nite.. esther said tat he get austism wor.. quite look alike de.. hehe.. in a sudden, I felt so nice n warm o.. he helped me to barbecue the sausage..helped me to take the jelly n some morefed me ner.. im really like a princess at tat time.. feeling so bliss.. I even kissed him by stealth.. I think there will b no1 saw I kiss him ba.. I oso took many many pics wit him.. wit all my frens.. so enjoyable.. we should be veli veli happy tat day.. the onli drawback is the time when my mom wanna reach carmen`s hse.. after I took my bag n waiting out there, he was standing beside me.. well.. I felt veli scare coz once my mom reach there.. sure she will c him.. tat time amanda was stood beside me, so I told her tat im so scare.. will cry out soon liao la.. I had 4got wat she said.. I juz remembered after amanda said something, he said, ‘ den wat u want me to do now??’ wai a angry n a out of sorts tone.. I feel dao lar.. at tat moment, my heart juz like dripping blood.. on the 1 part, I scare my mom c him.. on the other part, im so scare wit him.. I never c him in tis condition.. in such scary tone.. I think mayb im something wrong tat time.. I drank the whole cup of wine unexpectedly.. tat`s y when I reached home, I felt headache..feeling wanna faint..some more my face became veli veli red.. luckily my mom didn’t discover.. if not.. I cant imagine wat will happens next.. when he stood beside me, I almost get mad.. after he spoke out tat sentence, I felt abit out of sorts.. wanna ask him not to stand beside me, afterwards my mom could c him.. but I onli spoke till half way..den I stopped.. I chose to be endure..coz I knew once I get quarrel wit him..carmen`s party will be disrupt by me.. on the other hand, mayb.. we will be game over soon.. I knew my personality veli well.. once I get quarrel with some1.. I wont to be fren with tat ppl voluntarily..coz im quite passive.. although is him.. ithink the result should be the same.. or perhaps I would like to be fren again wit him.. but I think I wont hav tat kind of courage to call him.. how bout him?? Mayb he will come to soothe me.. but the premise is.. how onli can contact me?? Call by phone?? Impossible.. come to find me?? Dreaming!!??! Both of us did we hav our own future?!? I really wanna noe.. when im so nervous coz my mom is going to fetch me back, he holded my hand tightly.. at tat moment.. I felt tat tis guy has a sense of security.. but when im waiting outside alone.. tat feel is so lonely.. him? Mayb at inside gua.. the sense of security was missed.. the feeling of panic is presence.. perhaps frens is the best.. whenever I need some1 they will always beside me.. tis make me wanna noe did me n tis guy hav our own future?? Tis is a love story which not bless by my family members…